Anticipation is grief before the moment. Before the date. Before the service. Before the call.
Episode 2 of Dates You Can’t Delete is live: Anticipation. 🖤
(New here? Start with Episode 1: The Call )
In this episode, I talk about the way anticipation shows up across different seasons of grief, including when you’re carrying more than one loss, when everything is still fresh, when it’s been years and the date still hits, and when your loved one is still here and you feel the anxiety of “one day I’ll get the call.”
I also share two personal stories: one about visiting my grandmother and knowing on the train ride home I would not see her again, and one about a very personal choice I made after my mother passed. I didn’t view her in her casket even though I picked it out.
And I give you a practical framework you can use immediately: Anchor, Decide, and Support, a way to steady yourself when your body starts bracing.
Since Episode 1, The Call, this series has traveled farther than I expected. According to our records, The Mourning Manager is now reaching readers in places like India, Turkey and Sweden.
As I shared in Episode 1, I’m on a mission to reach 1,000 readers through this series. If someone came to mind, share it. One text is enough:
“I thought of you when I heard this. You are not alone.”
One more thing.
If you want to retain permanent access to the full series after it concludes in a few weeks, you can upgrade to paid before February 17. If you upgrade, you’ll also unlock a bonus post from the newsletter archive that includes three additional practical tips for navigating anticipatory grief.
After that date, the Dates You Can’t Delete audio series stays but will be in the archive available to paid subscribers. If upgrading isn’t right for you right now, it’s all good. The work continues. You’ll keep receiving insights and support in your inbox on Saturdays and twice a month. 🖤
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Until next time friends,
Carolyn’s daughter 🖤









